They say sorry is the hardest word - or at least Elton seems to think so - but so is goodbye.
Goodbye hurts. Goodbye is forever. Goodbye is final. Whats so good about goodbye?
Ive spent the past few months saying goodbye to people I love and its not getting any easier. In fact its getting harder. One leaves and you can cope, you miss them but its ok...but then another and another. And before you know it you are going through you mobile phone book and most of the numbers start with 00...the global code.
Australia, Singapore, Switzerland, New Zealand, Jamaica to name but a few. You promise to keep in touch, and you mean it, but inevitably life gets in the way - different time zones, telephone bills and everything else - the emails no matter how long how detailed cant convey your day to day runnings and thats whats so scary - the prospect of saying goodbye to something you shared and that you cant do anything about no matter how good your intentions are.
Sometimes goodbyes sneak up on you, you know its coming, 6 months, 6 weeks, 6 days later but then its real, its happening and its time to say goodbye. Sometimes goodbyes are sudden, you hadnt even entertained the prospect and here you are saying it just like that, bam.
Some goodbyes have hope - "I'll see you soon". Some goodbyes are good riddance. And some goodbyes have no hope, no riddance. In fact they sit heavy on your heart even if you actually want to say goodbye to that feeling you cant.
Regardless of which goodbye it is none of them are easy. Each time they take a little piece of you....at least until the next time when you say hello. If there is a next time.
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